When we started the adoption process, there were a lot of reservations. We were scared out of our minds. Deciding to take that jump into parenthood already presents itself with fears, but all the unknowns that adoption made us borderline crazy!
We couldn’t decide how to answer questions, where the money was going to come from, what agency to use. There just isn’t a lot of assistance when deciding to start the process, or at least for us there wasn’t. It was during the Superbowl of 2018 that I was in tears telling my husband that I was tired of being scared, tired of waiting, tired of being a mom to angels and not being able to hold a baby of my own. It was at this point that we crossed a hurdle and jumped in.
We stopped caring about money and preferences, let go and prayed. We were called to adoption and we needed to stop getting in our own way.
Fast forward to now. I have a husband that repeatedly thanks me for the meltdown of the 2018 Superbowl (literally what we call it) because we wouldn’t be where we are had I not screamed, cried and overate those appetizers.
Within a year, I became a mom to two boys who I cant’t imagine life without and to be honest don’t remember what life was like without.
It is amazing the stupid things that people say to you when you are adopting, have adopted, etc. SEVERAL people asked “do you think you can love James like Madison?”, “Now that you have your OWN, do you regret adoption?” and other inappropriate questions. My OWN?! Ugh!
Can I share something? I forget that I didn’t carry James, like all the time. I love him like I carried him, like I made him, like he is mine because guess what? God made us for one another and that love is so powerful and special that I can’t imagine what my life would be like without it.
They both made me a mom.
They both made me selfless.
They both made me realize the real meaning of life.
They both made me unbelievably happy.
They have both made me incredibly tired.
They have both made me crazy.
They both have me wrapped around their adorable finger.
They created a person that I never knew I could be but always wanted to be. I am a mom, and they BOTH made me one.
Amy says
Thank you for your honest and encouraging words. My husband and I are also considering adoption and have many of the same fears <3
onehaleofamom.com says
Thank you so much for stopping by and reading! My thoughts are always with those who are considering opening their hearts to adoption. It is a huge decision and not an easy one. If you ever need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to reach out! We have no regrets and he is so worth all we went through and did to find him!
Erin says
Omg! I’m sitting in the school pick up line crying! I love this! ❤️
onehaleofamom.com says
Thank you Erin! I’ll admit, I was crying while writing it!
Rachel says
I love this so much! I hear people ask these questions all the time and have to wonder if there is anyway to understand a mothers love if you haven’t felt it yourself? You are an awesome mother!
onehaleofamom.com says
Awe! Thank you Rachel! I wish I could have a picture of my face when those questions were asked!! The love of a mother is like no other and love makes a family not blood! Thank you for stopping by and reading!
Meghan Rambo says
This is beautiful. It must have been so hard to take that leap of faith. & I’m sorry about how many dumb comments people make about your children and adoption in general, that sounds incredibly frustrating.
onehaleofamom.com says
Thank you Meghan! There is nothing that prepares you for peoples ignorance, that’s for sure! It was something that made an already difficult process more difficult. The end result is something that no body can tarnish though!
Mariam says
This is so beautiful. You are incredible, and the journey that led you to your children is no less than any other mothers. Thanks for sharing this story, it is so encouraging for many!
onehaleofamom.com says
The journey to motherhood is an interesting journey for sure! I love the journey I am on and I love sharing. Thank you for reading and for your kind comments!
Kim says
This melts my heart! What beautiful boys you have. Congratulations Momma!